I cant write anymore . I really cant. Its been about 6 months since i have written a short story. I started many after that, but never completed any. I lack in ideas , creativity , enthusiasm. I have always believed that writing is my true passion, but has it died in me ?
3 years back when i started this blog i had lot of people asking me about it,appreciating and encouraging. Today , it has become more like goverment agency which has been run for none. But , for past 2 years or so (when this degradation started) ,i have been living with my friends , and never really had a personal space or peace of mind to sit back and write.However , i have moved recently , and i have put a hold to alcohol.I hope this change will help me to get back to writng ., i dont care if any one reads this , but i want to write , write and write ..
Changing my blog template due to superstition or for the feel of a new begining.
Cheers
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Sunday, August 1, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
The 3 avatars !
I just happened to scroll down and see the nonsense i been writing for sometime !
I cant believe that i been bullshitting so much . Its full of sick love stories and some other sentimental crap !! Its quite visible that i have not been laid for a long time.
I thought about how to change this situation , and meditated for 75 hours straight . Lalit Modi , Sania Mirza and Rakhi Sawant appeared in my meditation,and i recieved 3 different suggestions to improve my blog.
Laliit M : Take a break for 6 months . You will be back with a bang.
Sania Mirza : Get married to a Pakistani/Afghani etc , your blog will get the maximum media coverage.
Rakhi Sawant : For every problem in the world , there is only one solution . Take it off !!
When it comes to advices , you can only trust the most intelligent ! This had been a close contest ,yet i made my decision ,
OFF goes my blog template ...
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
So i got a new look !
I mean , my blog got a new look . I still look like that lean ,fair, spectacle'd , genius kinda assole !
Its been a long time since i changed anything in here . Infact , im too lazy to sit back and make my blog look good . Also , if i try to make it too attractive , people may feel that i am girl in disguise . As you all know , i am a male chauvenist !
(WTF is the spelling for Chauvenist ? )
How's this new look ? Is it gona make many girls fall for me ? I have also decided to write more about Gay'ism as well .There is an increasing number of gays these days . I have recently discovered that Gay'ism is a contageous disease and its spreading fast in my office . Dont worry , i have decided to change the project .
How wonderful it will be if all the guys change to gay and i am the only one left ? I will have all the girls in the world .
What a fucked up thought . I just forgot for a moment that i am a male chauvenist !
Well guys , i am just trying to be funny . I know there is nothing to lol , and i am sorry that i dont deliver such goods these days . You know the stuff i've been going through , and i am in a recovery period. But things are way better now , and i feel that the recovery angel is almost near my door .
Shit ! There really is a recovery agent at my door . He , however will be looking for my credit card !
Its been a long time since i changed anything in here . Infact , im too lazy to sit back and make my blog look good . Also , if i try to make it too attractive , people may feel that i am girl in disguise . As you all know , i am a male chauvenist !
(WTF is the spelling for Chauvenist ? )
How's this new look ? Is it gona make many girls fall for me ? I have also decided to write more about Gay'ism as well .There is an increasing number of gays these days . I have recently discovered that Gay'ism is a contageous disease and its spreading fast in my office . Dont worry , i have decided to change the project .
How wonderful it will be if all the guys change to gay and i am the only one left ? I will have all the girls in the world .
What a fucked up thought . I just forgot for a moment that i am a male chauvenist !
Well guys , i am just trying to be funny . I know there is nothing to lol , and i am sorry that i dont deliver such goods these days . You know the stuff i've been going through , and i am in a recovery period. But things are way better now , and i feel that the recovery angel is almost near my door .
Shit ! There really is a recovery agent at my door . He , however will be looking for my credit card !
Monday, June 22, 2009
The Struggling Film maker -
Before 2-3 months ,i was on a chat with my friend 'invent' ( ofcourse all about films and film making ). I told him about one of my stories 'One Night Stand' and before i finished , he told me .., "Lets make it , i will share half the production cost " .
That's how it started , and here i am 2-3 months down the line , with almost 70% of the film done.I'm happy that i have reached so far , and i am sure that i will go ahead and complete it no matter what comes ahead ., but still i feel a bit down due to all the unnecessary yet inevitable delays (contradicting eh ? let it be ).
So here i go , i am going to share with you on all my experiences till now and what happens to my short film ..(whatever may it be ) .
Episode 1 : The Beginning - Script , Screenplay and DP
To start with , i consulted a few of my friends who have experience in film making , and asked them whether i am capable enough to direct a short film . And with all the confidence they gave , i decided to give it a shot .
Me and Invent went to visit a studio which he knew , and then discussed about the cam and other costs . We planned the whole thing and our cost came around 15 K . That's great ," i can spend 7.5 K ", we both said together ...
OK ,now i had the task of writing script and screenplay . It took me around 10 days and about 150 cigarettes to complete a 14 page screenplay (may be the font size was large) . But still i had a proper screenplay , with even cam angles !
Now the next task was to find a cameraman or DP or cinematographer or whatever you call that man who look very serious on set . I again went through my set of friends and saw a lot of profiles and checked out their works , . Thats how i came across CamSat . He was introduced to me by one of my friends Vicky . I arranged a meeting with CamSat and called up another friend ModAr , and we met up on one fine evening . I showed my screenplay to them . When ModAr , as expected was more into the production costs and the marketing stratergies and other things about how to sell this 'product' , CamSat sat back and quietly read the script . I kept looking at him , but he never looked at me , which made me happy ,as i knew he was still reading it .
Finally , he kept all the papers inside the file , and looked at me and said . "Thats interesting plot , lets do it " . I smiled , and ModAr shook his head .
When CamSat left , ModAr asked me a very important question . "He is a proffessional ,just completed a feature film as DP., doesnt he expect something ?I mean financially?" ... That question left me worried . I knew he was the guy who can do it , but my budget plan do not have a space called 'remuneration for cameraman' . I nervously called up CamSat and asked him politely . "Do you expect anything , ehh.. like remuneration" . He laughed for sometime and told me "Dont worry , lets do it , then if you find anything left in your budget , let me know "
I didnt know how to thank him ..,even at this point i dont know how to !
Next episode : Actor Hunt .
That's how it started , and here i am 2-3 months down the line , with almost 70% of the film done.I'm happy that i have reached so far , and i am sure that i will go ahead and complete it no matter what comes ahead ., but still i feel a bit down due to all the unnecessary yet inevitable delays (contradicting eh ? let it be ).
So here i go , i am going to share with you on all my experiences till now and what happens to my short film ..(whatever may it be ) .
Episode 1 : The Beginning - Script , Screenplay and DP
To start with , i consulted a few of my friends who have experience in film making , and asked them whether i am capable enough to direct a short film . And with all the confidence they gave , i decided to give it a shot .
Me and Invent went to visit a studio which he knew , and then discussed about the cam and other costs . We planned the whole thing and our cost came around 15 K . That's great ," i can spend 7.5 K ", we both said together ...
OK ,now i had the task of writing script and screenplay . It took me around 10 days and about 150 cigarettes to complete a 14 page screenplay (may be the font size was large) . But still i had a proper screenplay , with even cam angles !
Now the next task was to find a cameraman or DP or cinematographer or whatever you call that man who look very serious on set . I again went through my set of friends and saw a lot of profiles and checked out their works , . Thats how i came across CamSat . He was introduced to me by one of my friends Vicky . I arranged a meeting with CamSat and called up another friend ModAr , and we met up on one fine evening . I showed my screenplay to them . When ModAr , as expected was more into the production costs and the marketing stratergies and other things about how to sell this 'product' , CamSat sat back and quietly read the script . I kept looking at him , but he never looked at me , which made me happy ,as i knew he was still reading it .
Finally , he kept all the papers inside the file , and looked at me and said . "Thats interesting plot , lets do it " . I smiled , and ModAr shook his head .
When CamSat left , ModAr asked me a very important question . "He is a proffessional ,just completed a feature film as DP., doesnt he expect something ?I mean financially?" ... That question left me worried . I knew he was the guy who can do it , but my budget plan do not have a space called 'remuneration for cameraman' . I nervously called up CamSat and asked him politely . "Do you expect anything , ehh.. like remuneration" . He laughed for sometime and told me "Dont worry , lets do it , then if you find anything left in your budget , let me know "
I didnt know how to thank him ..,even at this point i dont know how to !
Next episode : Actor Hunt .
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Im in Chennai !
Yea , thats correct . I moved to chennai last week .
Why ? How ? When ? What ? Damn ! WTF ! IGAF (i give a fuck) .. , Now , what ever your feelings may be , the fact of the matter is that i got a better job here and hence i moved . Certain other factors like , having a lot of friends and script writing aspirations etc , helped me to make my decision easy .
I seriously miss my friends there in cochin . My roommate musicdirector , thulu, the romatic couple , the funny couple , my colleagues , my fuck all owner , the alcohol (it sucks here) , the chiks (mallus are the hottest , you know that!) ,girlfriends (OK , thats a lie , i am happy that i lost contact ) ., the rains (some kids i met here do not understand what that is ) ., the beef and porotta , the kallu shop and everything . But , then , i know that things need to change in life some day or the other .
And now , speaking about chennai , i arrived here on wednesday (hey , my company paid for my air ticket ! , isnt that cool ? ! ) and almost immediately started sweating ,. and till this moment, sitting in an airconditioned cyber cafe , it has not stopped . Now thats chennai for you !
I am happy about my stay here ., good independent big house , where me , cuckoo , panchvipaas and D lives . Though these are the regular members , we have more people in our place almost everyday . Our home is a true 24 X 7 station , as there are people awake all the time .
There are loads of things that i want to write about , but i cant find much time these days . I hope to get the internet connection and stuff ready by next month . , So till then ., regular updations will be difficult . (But hey , i cant stop writing , and this is the only place i write these days , so i will be here sooner or later ) ..
And to all those who were awaiting honey moon trip part two , sorry for the delay , i was busy with the shifting and stuff , will get it done soon !
And to all chennai'tes ,
I agree that i cant pronounce O properly , but remember that its ZERO and not GERO !
Why ? How ? When ? What ? Damn ! WTF ! IGAF (i give a fuck) .. , Now , what ever your feelings may be , the fact of the matter is that i got a better job here and hence i moved . Certain other factors like , having a lot of friends and script writing aspirations etc , helped me to make my decision easy .
I seriously miss my friends there in cochin . My roommate musicdirector , thulu, the romatic couple , the funny couple , my colleagues , my fuck all owner , the alcohol (it sucks here) , the chiks (mallus are the hottest , you know that!) ,girlfriends (OK , thats a lie , i am happy that i lost contact ) ., the rains (some kids i met here do not understand what that is ) ., the beef and porotta , the kallu shop and everything . But , then , i know that things need to change in life some day or the other .
And now , speaking about chennai , i arrived here on wednesday (hey , my company paid for my air ticket ! , isnt that cool ? ! ) and almost immediately started sweating ,. and till this moment, sitting in an airconditioned cyber cafe , it has not stopped . Now thats chennai for you !
I am happy about my stay here ., good independent big house , where me , cuckoo , panchvipaas and D lives . Though these are the regular members , we have more people in our place almost everyday . Our home is a true 24 X 7 station , as there are people awake all the time .
There are loads of things that i want to write about , but i cant find much time these days . I hope to get the internet connection and stuff ready by next month . , So till then ., regular updations will be difficult . (But hey , i cant stop writing , and this is the only place i write these days , so i will be here sooner or later ) ..
And to all those who were awaiting honey moon trip part two , sorry for the delay , i was busy with the shifting and stuff , will get it done soon !
And to all chennai'tes ,
I agree that i cant pronounce O properly , but remember that its ZERO and not GERO !
Sunday, February 3, 2008
The Begining
Hmm , So here we go
My second blog , i have decided to make the other one exclusive for film reviews .
I am here because i got inspired by eM the blogger .
She is hot and funny (i have not seen her till date though) and i 'Wannabe' like her , famous and rich. :-)
Do'nt think that i have started writing after i saw her , no , never . I have written this story named 'The red sun rising' when i was , 10 years old . I have never stopped writing since . I dont have a family full of writers or artists or people who belong to the 'artist' world . No , not even a trace of it . And i have never written anything for the heck of writing . Most of my stories have not been seen by any one , but still i think that they all rock . Cmon , seriously , they all ROCK !
Now i have this problem of too many thoughts , i mean i have this uncontrollable over flow of ideas and imagination , that i find it difficult to retrace them and present it to my people . And even if i remember , i may not have the right person to tell this to
Hence this blog , Where my thoughts and ideas and experiences , all will come in . Im afraid of idea thefts though , Ha Ha :-P
C ya then
With loads of puffs and pegs
Menon
My second blog , i have decided to make the other one exclusive for film reviews .
I am here because i got inspired by eM the blogger .
She is hot and funny (i have not seen her till date though) and i 'Wannabe' like her , famous and rich. :-)
Do'nt think that i have started writing after i saw her , no , never . I have written this story named 'The red sun rising' when i was , 10 years old . I have never stopped writing since . I dont have a family full of writers or artists or people who belong to the 'artist' world . No , not even a trace of it . And i have never written anything for the heck of writing . Most of my stories have not been seen by any one , but still i think that they all rock . Cmon , seriously , they all ROCK !
Now i have this problem of too many thoughts , i mean i have this uncontrollable over flow of ideas and imagination , that i find it difficult to retrace them and present it to my people . And even if i remember , i may not have the right person to tell this to
Hence this blog , Where my thoughts and ideas and experiences , all will come in . Im afraid of idea thefts though , Ha Ha :-P
C ya then
With loads of puffs and pegs
Menon
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