You know what the biggest challenge in life is ?
It is to identify what you really want in life ., and have the courage to believe and pursue it.
Im 25 years old and i am so confused . The problem is that , i kinda know what i want in life , but i am lacking the courage to pursue it .Let me explain ,
Current situation :
I am a network engineer , i earn a decent salary , i do a nice job , and i live in Chennai. I have loads of friends and contacts in here , i love the place except for the weather.
What i want in life :
I want to be a successful engineer , earning a huge salary. I want to be a writer ,i want to make a movie , i want to run a business , i want to be involved with the film industry and i want to take care of my family . I want to be closer to my girl.
What the problem is :
" Hey , where is your son now ? My son is in US/UK ."
" Hey , where is your brother now ? "
" Hey , so where is your boyfriend ? "
" Why cant he go to US ? "
" Oh , he has never been there ? I been in 3 countries "
" You dont know man , the blondes! Oh , i love Europe "
Another reason , is .., any guesses ?
Ha ha , you got it .Its her !
She is in Europe and loves the place . I am not blaming her , its just the difference in perception . I want to be near to her , and is worried whether i would lose her if we continue this long distance thing for a long time . But if i force her to come back here , she wont be happy . So whats the option left ? She might end up getting a job there , and why would her parents have to think about me then ?
The 'US Mappilai' is available for plenty .
When i think about it , if i really try , i would get a PR . But then , what for ? Work experience ? When it comes to computer engineering , i dont think there is anything much for me to 'experience' in there . Everything there is outsourced here.
How about my movie dreams ? People say that i can still do a course or something there. But , i already have good connections in here , and when it comes to movie industry, contacts are the most important thing .
How about my family ? Do i really want to leave them and live there ?
And all this for what ?
Yes , i love Europe and America , i love football , the snowfall , the culture . But , i just want see all that , i dont want to live there .
If i am a little patient , i am sure i would get a chance to travel . But i am getting impatient .
Why is this happening to me ? Why cant i believe in what i want , and just be patient ?
Am i doing a wrong thing by staying back here ? I am not sure , but i feel this is the right thing . This girl i am speaking about is sensible , and would understand me . But still , certain things confuse me .
What you guys say ? Should i follow what the society is asking me to do or should i follow what my heart says ?
What is more important ? Your dreams or your love ?
Would i be doing a mistake by following what my heart says ? and more importantly , what is the meaning of ,
"Its your call buddy" ???
2 comments:
as i always say u think tooooo bloody much...evry1 dreams of travelling abroad and not evry1 gets that chance u know but u will..there is so much of time ahead of u ..y do u wanna rush things!!! i know the girl she din wan u to come here cos she wants u to be always b close..God knows there is a hole life time for that...dont think too much abt this sily petty stuff, u got so much better thing sto do in life..:)
Thanks :)
I know all this , and i am going to believe in myself. Its just that at times i get a bit tensed :P
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